my cynicism and my erratic self esteem
from my mother.
her statements (sometimes) tend to
reek of bitterness,
borderlining hopelessness-
it's uncomfortable.
i bet i make you
uncomfortable.
plus,
today i finalised that
i am a judgmental and
self-glorifying _______.
i think i am dangerously
sinful.
i think i need God
(the idea of God, or an equivalent)
and at the same time,
i am rejecting it
'cuz im
just too damn bloody proud.
11:21 PM